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The life of a biology student living in a small dorm room aka. where I talk into the void about stuff

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Ups And Downs

I don't really know why I'm writing this, maybe to get it out somehow. It's late and I'll regret this tomorrow.    Sometimes I don't handle things well, I get tired so easily. I love studying biology, but I don't always have the energy to be a student. It goes up and down. Sometimes I have days where I have so much energy, I get so much done, then I hit rock bottom and I lie in bed for an entire day. And then I just skip classes, and curl up with a book or some of my hobbies, trying to feel better. And I'm lonely, which is silly. I have several friends, family who lives nearby, and I know that my parents would come to pick me up for a visit home if I just asked.   I guess that is my problem, asking for help. "I'm fine." My most frequent lie. Those acting classes did pay off I guess.    Most of those who know me know I struggle with migraines, a lot. They leave me so exhausted, both physically and emotionally. I can deal with the pain from the migraines, it's the exhaustion that tears me down.    Today started good, I had plans to work on my ethics paper, then I had a migraine attack. I took a painkiller and slept for three hours. I woke up, so tired, so exhausted, I'm crying and shaking.    I'm going to post this before I regret it and just delete it before even posting, as a reminder to myself. I have a bad habit of thinking I'm fine after I come up again from one of these downs, it's a cycle. Maybe if I see this tomorrow I'll actually gather up the courage to make an appointment with a psychologist, or just another appointment with the school councilor. Someone.   I'm sorry, this is a letter to myself on my public blog.... I hate it, but I think, I think if I don't post it somewhere I see it again I'll just keep going like I've done now for the last three years. Ignoring it. 

Freya

Freya

 

Pollen Season

Ah, spring is here. The birds are singing, the snow has melted away and I can finally go outside without at least three layers.    The perfect season.    Except for one problem, pollen. Now fortunately I am not asthmatic, or extremely allergic to pollen, but still allergic enough that my eyes itch like crazy and I sneeze. A lot. And my sneezes aren't quiet or cute, they're those sudden loud sneezes that startle people out of their seats. You think I'm exaggerating? I've seen it literally happen, sitting in class we were all working in complete silence and I sneeze so hard my friend startles so badly she falls off her chair. That was hilarious. I love startling people, in he fun kind of way of course.   Anyway back to my point, so because of pollen season I sneeze a lot which means I also sneeze during lectures. Now a lot of people are using these small handheld recorders to record the lecture so they can listen to it later, and I never really thought about that until today.    I was talking to another bio student I know in passing, and as we were talking I sneezed loudly and her eyes widen.    "You!" She exclaims pointing an accusing finger at me. "You're the one who keeps sneezing when I listen to the recordings."    ....    So apparently I've got easily recognizable sneezes. Yay me...   The worst part is the worst has yet to come, the birch trees hasn't yet dropped their load and I am not looking forward to seeing everything I love covered in yellow pollen. Why does there have to be so many birch trees in Norway???    (translation: We're exterminating several species a day - can't we just saw those ----- birch-trees down?!)

Freya

Freya

 

Encounters At 3 am

So this happened to me a few weeks ago, and it still amuses me.    So for context I live in a student dorm, and I share a kitchen/common area and bathroom with three other people. It's in the middle of the night and I'm thirsty, so I put on my bathrobe and pad out to the kitchen to get a glass of water. And I get into the kitchen and a complete stranger is sitting by the table eating McDonalds, at 3 am. I swear I jumped a foot when I rounded the corner and saw him sitting there, and he was all alone none of my flatmates was sitting there with him, so just this lone stranger eating McDonalds burgers.    I probably just stared at him in disbelief for a few seconds, trying to figure out if this was real or a strange dream.    Thankfully it turns out he was visiting one of the guys I live with, and wasn't some strange burglar. We chatted for a bit, or well he chatted and I answered with one syllable words and then I got my glass of water and went to bed. The whole thing felt really surreal.    I met him again the next morning as I was preparing breakfast, thankfully actually wearing clothes instead of just my bathrobe. He on the other hand was just clad in a small towel... the life in a student dorm is an interesting one. 

Freya

Freya

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