I'm starting to feel better ever since I told my mother that I resent her LOL. I don't necessarily feel good about telling her that I resent her, but it was a lot of formless negative energy associated with her that I think I was able to let go of when I told her. I know that she did her best and my feelings for her were very juvenile. But that's the thing about emotions, did you know? They don't mature with the rest of you. If someone hurt you when you were six and you've never forgiven them, your hurt is still going to be the type of hurt a six year old has. It's a little silly, how humans do.

I'm still a little uneasy, I suppose. My grandmother has some nodules in her lungs that they're doing tests on. My grandma's very important to me. I don't want to receive any comments about this because I won't be able to handle them LOL, but I needed to say something.

I'm also a little uneasy about my internship. Found out that it's going to be in the psychiatric ward of the hospital nearby. I'm very tired right now and don't know if I have the energy to deal with that, but I felt that way about my last internship as well and it wasn't so bad. There really aren't any less-intensive alternatives either. I wonder if I might just be worried about meeting the staff there. They always want to talk with me and have me tell them about myself and fuck, I'm boring LOL.

Ah, well!